Tell Me What Is Love??

Lets say you know everything in life huh??Tell me,what does love means to you??Something very sweet with lots of hugs and kisses or is it something that cause you pain and stress?You know,I used to advise people on the "love" kinda thing but when this really happens to me im a real loser at it. 'Leave that freak for all he did cause you pain',was what came out everytime my friends fail in a relationship. When i look back at myself now i will tell myself that im talking bullshit all this while.It's very hard for us to be cruel when we are drawn into this pathetic feeling of love. I fell in love with this guy-which im not suppose to,and i really thought i can get over him in no time but 'NOO'. This feeling just gets deeper and deeper.Clindging on to something where you don't know when its gona hurt you another time again is so challenging yet so stupid. Yet,what can you do since you love that jackass so much?ahahahahha...funny!

The realistic side of me tells me to leave this guy once and for all but i gotta be honest with you, i can't. Im just not ready to give up that easily. My f@#$king ego! This will be the last chance im giving myself to try an d make this relationship work. If it does'nt then 'hastala vista' babe. Not easy for me yet not that hard. I believe that you need to sacrifice in order to get what you want.

To my dear friends,you know the exact story,im doing this is because i wana try one last time. If you guys happen to read this i hope you guys ubderstand. Im a stubborn person, like all of you, but i know what im up to. Not that easy to find someone you really have this feelings to and if i really fail, i wont cry again.I will always love you guys!

Confuse!!Cannot fathom!!!

I am so confuse by what is happening now. Yes,i know i should be forgetting what has already happened but could I?? This is the second time. To be very honest i don't know what i should do. How should i react towards you?? Really, now im asking myself whether or not to avoid you for a while.

Thats what i will ask when you told me the other day. I know its uncontrollable but please, we are only friends and thats the way it should be. Cherish the one that you have now!! Although i still cnt entirely remember C, i still dont want to give up. Its not easy for me to find someone that i really like. You may think that im stupid but that is just me.I believe in 1 thing,sacrifice is needed when you really love some1. Maybe i will find another person in the next few years but untill then i still need time to get over what has happened. Nothing in this world is perfect.

People

The things that i do will not be recognise or even realise by anyone. Mybe there are a few who will understand me but still not as i have expected. In this realistic life there will be jealousy, stupidity, rage, lies and all the things people do in order to survive in this world. It is very sad that eventhough you know this person for like 8, 10 years or even all your life, turn their heads back and find ways to push you to the bottom regardless how much effort you made to bring them up before they even get their butts on the manager's chair. 'Dog eat dogs world', thats what my mother would tell me and i really agreed. Useless,i would say, to treat those people- which we call infested maggots, well and promoting them to the next level.

Cant these people see the things they have done??They havent been betrayed by anyone as yet but i can guarantee you that they will suffer much more as i did than what i am now. Chances have been given but these blind people will not even realise. Yet,i have to thank them for letting me know the other side of them and let me know how foolish these people can be in just listening to one person. That person is as well not that smart at all! If by any chance those foolish people that read my blog, you will know that im talking about you. Im coming right after you! Just becareful.

The start of a new blog n a new beginning!!!

The starting of my new blog is my starting of life where every sad things have already passed. I know its not the end of my sadness in life but at least for now it is something that i think is very important to me. Its funny though cox when i think back of what i've done in order to get his attention it was like so childish. Like any other girl, the story no matter how it goes around, my story is the same. Girl lik guy, guy like girl but for some reasons they cannot be together. Bla bla bla..boring!! When you are in that situation then you'll know how it feels.

Its all over now,just let faith take place. There's nothing more i can do n nothing more i can say.Work and studies are taking over the pain that im having and time really does cure any pain that u have. Now no matter what family and friends are the most important thing in my life now. My dear friends,thank you very much to have support me and be by my side when i really need a shoulder to lie on. Im very lucky cx i hv 3 shoulders to lie on.Joe,Ching,and Yit, i jux wana let u guys know that i really cherish our friendship. U guys went all the trouble for me. Anything u need now or in the future,im here for u.I love u guys.

All of you are very much in your busy lifestyle. Although all of us have work and studies to crack our heads for, i really hope before u leave (Joe), we can play a set of basketball together. Lets just consider it a farewell game. Could we? I dont know when can we play again next time.Oh yeah, btw, looking forward for the pinang trip.

Thats it for now,my everything will now be written in this blog whether it's happy or sad.