A Normal Human Being.....

Today : 22nd September 2008
Time : 532pm


Today,Denise is in a normal mood. Not emo and stuff!! Just felt as usual like the times where i haven't fell for anyone. Time really heals a person no matter what it is including your feelings for someone. It's not hard and it ain't easy as well. But once you felt that your love one does not love or care for you as he should then that is the time when you need to wake up. When you told him sincerely and truthfully how much you love him but he did not responded, it's sad and very discouraging. I don't worry about anything much now. Time will take its course and maybe by then, he won't be anything to me. Just a very normal friend. Im very tired now. I need rest!!

My Feelings!!!!

Its been a few months now since i've updated my blog. How am i now? Not fine! At least my feelings are clear now. I am still in this kind of relationship that i dont even know what am i. I love being with him but till now,im not happy! How long does this have to go on? How long can i stand? Im really very tired of being a doorman! He may not tink its true but what im experiencing is the other way round. I know love is suffer, commitment and sacrifices but how can i do this by myself? I cared for him alot but now i think i should be the 1 to let go. C, please tell me what i should do to you? When i look at you unhappy, my heart sinks,but if i move on i will be so hurt! Im all bruising now but you can't see. I acted nothing in front of you but there is something. You are so different now than u were before and i hate to ask you this question but "What am i to you"?. If you tell me now that you have no feelings towards me and im a waste of your time then ok! At least i have a clear picture on what i am. The reason i stay is because i wana make you happy! I wana help you and go through the tough road that you are going through now.

I am badly hurt already! I think its time to say goodbye. I love you but your love is hard for me to reach and i have tried my best to do so already! Its not that i dont want you, but you dont want me!
Goodbye!