Feelings

Feelings! Nothing more than feelings. It crashes you down without even realizing why. We went out for a movie yesterday all happy and excited. One thing that bothers me most is that the guy who came out from her house when i waited her infront. Who is that guy and what does he intend to do to her? This feeling, is insane and most of all on that very second, i felt so saddened and angry. Jealousy it is! Deniz is farking jealous!! That rarely happens to me. I thought i said i don't want to burden her just because i like her. Didn't want her to be the joke of the day because i ain't a guy to complete her. What if i can't make her happy? What if i don't love her enough and make her cry everyday?Basically im very confuse and unsure about my feelings. AAaaaarrgghhhh!!!!IM SO FREAKING JEALOUS! =heugv 'ph[ju

The Ugly or the Pretty!!????

It is so funny when i thought about my mum's expression towards a boy gal relationship. That guy he wants me to be with is a very successful man indeed but of course his appearance is not what you think a manifique. I told her straight on her face that this guy is ugly!! She kept saying choosing a guy is not about the appearance. But what if your little girl here wants a girl n not a guy?A girl's age defies her appearance and this is actually my biggest problem. Am i choosing a beauty or a beast? In another words, your just a sucker under your mum's control if u just listen blindly. The beauty part is kinda tough road to ride on! This is just a once in a life time opportunity and you might be an old lonely lady then. So what should it be? Choosing a safe road or a road that everyone avoids? Well, currently, i love girls too much to let them go. I am still hungry for them..haha