I need to know

What he heck am i doing? What time isit? Y am i not in bed when i shud be and my class is 8am 2mr? Y do i still wait for him even if he knows that im waiting and doesnt care? Y? Tell me y am i doing all this to hurt myself?I felt so so so so so so so stupid rite now.....I cant even think properly. Why should i love this person if he doesnt love me? What am i holding on to?The sweet memories>?I know better im not gonna get it back from him...But y?darn man...even i cant think properly...